My last post talked about how I was going to write fiction for a month. Well, that didn’t go as planned. I stuck with it for less than a week. Depression made a comeback in my life. There was no amount of motivation or discipline that was going to keep me going. I’m doing much better now, and I’ve decided to not but any requirements on the type of writing I do for a while.
During my depressive episode, I started doomscrolling Reddit for about a week. Maybe that was a huge mistake, or maybe it was a useful distraction at the time. The worst part may have been what I did after. I knew Reddit’s home page was a disaster, so I traded it for YouTube’s home page—thinking that long form content would be much better. It sucked me in just as badly and for longer because I was halfway justifying the long form content.
It took a while, but I got into a good place with help from my doctor. Now I have the homepage and subscription page content on YouTube blocked, as well as, comments, shorts, and related videos. All I can do on there now is search for a video. It’s possible still to abuse the site but requires a lot more intention to do so.
Now I’m going to turn my focus to writing whatever I’m in the mood for, reading some good books, and getting back into a healthy routine.